We are all born in a realistic world, should be a blessing that am born in a sophisticated country, Singapore, where our standard of living is high. With the limited resources around, everyone is fighting for a space to live happily. Climbing up the corporate ladder, earning more money, stereotyping, looking for a good life partner, etc. Because of all this, the world around us is realistic, we went for interviews (to get better jobs), we went to social apps to find promising love, every of this little action involve people judging us by our outlook and outfit. Like I always say, when you are walking along the street, u won't lay your eyes on a plus size opposite sex and say I believe he have a great inner beauty and I want to get to know him. We judge, even you and me, we practice judgement. Soon, achieving a great body had become a norm for us.
Want to be beautiful
As a typical lady, me too want to be a beautiful girl.. overweight had always been bothering me since young, when everyone is happy with the new mini skirt they bought, am still stuck with my XL jeans and T-shirts. When am young, the only thing I hate is am one of the heaviest among my group of girl friends, even among my cousins. Hate the moment when am been labelled as "the over-weights". Never am I in the limelight, am always stay unnoticed. As a girl grow older, they start to get influence by the social circle, by the media, trying to stay in the fashion and look good. This is the point when I decided to do something about myself.
This is me when am at my 18 years old
Impatient and laziness - We want shortcuts
My 1st attempt is to go on starvation, whenever I feel hungry I take milk, packet corns and can tuna. I feel weak, I fell sick once a month. I lost 5kg, from 72kg to 65kg. And my weight got stagnant, without much progress and with my craving start building up, am back to my usual diet habit. I begin to also try on those "on-the-shelf" slimming pills, not much effect. So as introduce by my friend, I went to the doctor for medication, am prescript with this drug call "Reductil". It help to suppress your craving, side effects is fast heartbeat and migraine. Probably a few more KG off, to around 62KG. The drugs wasn't cheap, I think I spent around $100 over for a 1 month supply.
When 1 was 21 year old, clash diet with medications (commercial & doctor's)
I was than only 21 years old, the medication is too costly for me in long run and my body weight stay stagnant again. I was told that if you took the medication for a year, your body will begin to get immune to it, and no further effect will take place. Since there isn't much effect, I rather save the money. So I stop the medication, the yo-yo effect start to take place. From there on, I gain weight and went to 68KG.
My Yo-Yo effect when am 22 years old
Again, my slimming regime kicks in, I begin to take the medication again and watch my diet. It went to 63KG and gradually, I felt that the medication is not working, I don't have that craving suppression anymore.
Back to slimming at 23 years old
I was 24 that time, as a change of job, I can't afford the medication anymore, so my weight went up to 70KG.
My weight went to 70KG
When I was 25, I was introduce to this acupuncture slimming program with the help of meal replacement. And yes, I invested close to $4000 for the whole package. With the help of the meal replacement, and a strict diet of only fish soup and yong tau foo soup, in around 4 months time, my weight went to 59KG, it was at my lowest.
However, the beautiful dream don't last. There was once when my craving is at my peak and I was told that we have a 3 days Chinese New Year diet break, go eat whatever you want, everything, Bak Kwa, whatever. After the 3 days, back to replacement meal for strict 2 weeks, 3 meals of replacement meal and no other food, for detox purpose. So ya, I went for my 3 days break, but it became a permanent break, am indulge with all the good tasty food so much that the thoughts of going back to the 3 days replacement meal seems so torturous to me. I can't stop enjoy the food, my craving was so strong, and I didn't go back for my review anymore. Being really lazy, all my above method had never involve exercise, never. I went up to more than 75KG, probably to a great 77 or 78KG in 2 years.
Taken on 29 April 2012
A turning point for me - Changes that am so grateful about
Was 27 years old then, just last year end, weighing as much as 77kg or more, I don't dare to meet up with friends, when I saw familiar faces in public, I tried to avoid, I hate the moment when friends say to me: "OH MY GOD! what have you done to yourself, You gain so much weight!" I hate it! I once been admire for my effort to down my weight to 60KG and now am back to square 1. For months I did not spend much on clothing, except for working attire, because no point spending money buying beautiful clothes that don't make me look beautiful. Was in a 3 years relationship then, I hide myself up, avoiding the public, even photos taking had been reduced, because it simply look too ugly. I spend all my time with my then boyfriend, until one fine day, we broke up in last year December. True enough, it was heartbreaking, other than the heartbreak, in my mind was like "gosh, am in this terrible state now who else will ever want me, am so fat and old". Thanks god. I build it back and even better. I start my new diet with herbalife, with the right way of product usage, I went to 67KG in Feb this year.
In end Feb 2013
Life is about Dare to DREAM. Dare to ACHIEVE.
I always dream to have a an athletic body, nice abs, even 6 packs, tone arms, nice glute. I have never thought that I can actually work my way towards it. Though I have yet to reach my ultimate goals, but am confident that I'll do it. And yes, it is not just a diet nor just a slimming process. Its a transformation to me, I gain confident, confident to face people and confident that with effort, I'll be able to achieve what I want. I begin to love myself even more. The amount of clothes I bought in 1 month now is more than the amount I bought in 1 year when I was fat. Same as anyone, my initial goal was just to lose some weight, gradually my goal grow bigger. Coming 10 months into this lifestyle change, am grateful and still loving my herbalife shake now, never had I find it yucky and torturous. Now I wish to share this transformation with everyone, helping everyone to gain back confident and able to stand on their own again. I used to start off this diet secretly and humbly, now I felt that I should just share my secret and reach out to people who need my help. Because I been through it, I know how it feels and I don't think anyone deserve to feel so low about themselves.Be beautiful, be healthy. Do something for yourself!
Before photo taken in Oct 2012, After photo taken on 21 Sep 2013











